Yes, indeed, the capitalization means something. It means a lot. Especially when the word “list” follows.

Who in BOB’s name makes lists of friends? Actual, human, face-to-face relationships with people?

I’m finding it harder and harder to think of “online only” people as friends. Real friends. Granted I have real friends who are also on my Facebook friends list, but those are people I have seen in person, without a phone or wifi signal connecting us.

Sure, I’ve emailed my best friend more in the last six months than seen her in person, but again, we are actual living humans who work and require sustenance, clothing, and roofs over our head. So, life gets in the way. But we both fully and completely understand that things happen.

I’m learning to understand that conversations with people, held only via a tiny glowing screen with letters instead of voices are not a worthy and reliable form of human contact. Or a formable and meaningful sign of friendship. They are meaningless and worthless in every way.

There is no way to know if a person is sincere or truthful in there words. There’s no voice to reassure, no hint of emotional or physical contact to be gained through these conversations.

Someday I’ll have the guts to say things like this to the people who truly need to hear it.

Until then I will relegate my frustrations to a tiny glowing screen with letters to type instead of words to speak.

Goodnight
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