Have you ever tried really hard to be someone’s friend? Like, tried so hard to be part of their inner circle? Someone you’ve looked up too, admired, and was maybe a little jealous of? And you thought, “I wanna friend them so hard!” Because maybe, just maybe, some of what makes them awesome would rub off on you and the two of you could be awesome together? 

For years now, it seems, I’ve been “following” this person, hoping I’d say something that would make us closer. 

I feel like I’ve never worked so hard in my life to get someone’s attention! Any other situation, I don’t find it difficult to make friends, unlike when I was in high school. I’m a very open, friendly person now, so I just crack a joke, introduce myself and then I don’t stop talking. 

But there’s alway one hold out, I guess. I’m just not good enough for your inner circle, or even your solar system. But that’s okay, I’ve not wasting any more effort on that! 

Have a wonderful day! 🙂

-c